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happy hari raya aidiladha
its been raining like crazy since the wee
hours of the morning
one thing, it makes the day look gloomier
i wonder if tis is a percursor for all the
good things to come?
hope so.
the takbir yesterday made me think back
on the past
it also resulted in me feeling a lil tad guilty,
though much more than i would have liked.
reminding me that for so long, i have neglected
my duties as a faithful & humble servant.
ah God
i know, theres no excuses
but its kinda hard when deep inside you theres
some sort of conflict, rendering your heart
in a vulnerable state
i need to make peace it seems, with myself
before i make peace with God.
fervently hope its gonna be sooner, seeing as how
i've been thinking about death lately, heh
is this another sign, i do wonder.
i rarely do things on impulse these days
must be due to the so called good influence of
the darling, heh
but then again, we all know that desire trumps
intellect
thus the impulses
and right now, theres a certain desire brewing inside.
i think my intellect is in trouble already, lol
we'll see.
the sanctity of it all